life really is that good.

I have started this with a different line like ten times now. Its my blog, why do I care how this comes out. Its just for my practice of writing and my thoughts and its my outlet to write whatever whenever. Its not like I write anything inappropriate or out of line. It doesn't matter if it doesn't go along with what anyone else thinks. I looked back on my blog from the last year. I was kind of surprised when I saw my sister had put it into a scrapbook. I guess it was kind of nice to know where I was every few months. I may have not given every detail of my life....but I highlighted some good things. I find my blog to be a little bit of an outlet for good things. Just to remind myself that crap happens and yet life is still good. I don't care if everyone thinks no ones life can really be that good. We have newspapers to read about depressing stuff all day. I like hearing how people enjoy their lives and how they love their families. The good things in my life as of right now are....I have just found out I get a raise...effective when I get back from pageant. I am going to be in the hill cumorah pageant. Maybe I suck at preparing myself for the pageant, but at least I get to go. I'm working on it. I don't wanna write a whole blog about the things I SHOULDVE DONE...but I'm just happy I get to participate in that. I got to go to a Cincinnati reds game the other night. I had fun, It was hot as HELL out there...but guess what, I had good company and there was a super sweet display of fireworks at the end. You know what, I didn't want the night to end, but it did. AND then. Saturday I went to a singles branch activity. So what if i was a little annoyed that it was poorly planned and the gal in charge did it all on her own and so she was late...maybe i think she should've asked for help, but she didn't. We still were there and i participated a little bit. I was a little bit tortured through all of the popsicle eating everyone had going on, but....even still... I was happy to be around such good people. Who cares if they can all have lots of sugar right now and I cant. No reason for me to be in a bad mood. I had a great night and got to have great conversations. So what if i missed out on a little bit of sleep. So what if I'm trying to make better decisions and choices with my sleeping habits. and then there was Sunday. I had a great fathers day. haha I'm not a father, and i wasn't with my Father even. Maybe I'm not the best child. I sent a text saying happy fathers day and I love you. I got a response "ty". Not probably typical, but the family was on their way home from Florida. They spent a week at Disney world. I spent that day at church with friends, and then swam some laps with Reilly for our Sunday night workout. Then we hung out at her brothers house all night with a few more friends. It was pretty awesome to spend some quality time together. So what if all we did was talk, clean out her purse, eat some cinnamon rolls, feed the fish on the Wii and then did maybe we laughed lots when i was trying to touch her psoas. Nobody but me really needs to remember any of these details probably. I'm sure in 6 months or a year from now I'll look back and just kind of smile. Because today , this week, right now I am learning to appreciate life. I guess its just like that, when things are happy, you gotta kinda take a minute to look around and there has to be someone who might need some cheering up. I just found out that today my sister in laws brother died. I dont know details, but if anyone reads this and wants to say a prayer, I'm sure they could use any comfort that could be passed along their way. AND I should probably stop putting off sleep and get some rest... I really should be walking in the morning. Eh, we'll see how that goes. ohhh and I haven't even gotten to post anything about my trip to arizona. I had a good time, a wierd time, but a good time there. I think that needs to be its own topic once i get my pictures off my phone or from my friends camera. Glad I went, but i'm not sure why I ever wanted to go back to arizona to live soooo BADLY... not feeling it. I was not thinking I was going to have THAT kind of experience about it all.