Stressed out...

I had to sit and write a little bit. It helps to be able to use my voice (writing) whichever you prefer towards something other than an assignment. I'm not thrilled to have to write for an assignment...pretty much ever. I have to own up to something to enjoy it. I have to make it my idea for it to even come close to being good. Wow, I'm feeling more and more like my brother with that comment. I think that's how all my brothers are. I think they like stuff their way or just don't talk about it. That is maybe why there are so many times I'm hesitant to ask anyone for advice or help on anything. I don't like doing things any other way than my own. This has proved to be a difficult way of thinking. I tend to have to learn lessons the hard way and over and over again. If you know me, you probably know what a big joke it is that I move so much. Hey, what can I say, I take after my dad. That's how the raised me :) to just move lots. One time I came back to Ohio again and made it to my institute class on a Wednesday night. (love those nights) I talked to my teacher that night and told him I made the decision too last minute and I should have just stayed at home for that point in time. He said, "I knew that, but it wouldn't have meant much to you if I would've told you that". I am beginning to think that is how the Savior teaches me lessons too. I really do have the agency to do whatever it is that I please. I just have to be prepared for the consequences. I'm getting older and starting to feel the consequences of not having too much of a root grown anywhere. Its not so fun to be completely honest. I just want a place to call home. I want stability. Guess that one is something you earn from hard work though. I am not having fun living in Idaho. I don't like the climate whatsoever. Why did I pick to be here in the winter?! So as much as I am not loving it 100%, I know its something I have to stick out for the sake of doing the right thing. I have had a fun young adult life....but not a very responsible one :)... I started at Rick's college in 2000 and years later I'm finally almost to the point of getting an associates degree! Big whoop though. 8 yrs for a 2 yr degree. WOW, how bad does that sound. The advisor told me, "Well, you don't have to tell your employers how long it took you to get your degree". We both kind of giggled, but that made me want to quit even more. I don't feel like a really good student but most times I like to learn. I get super frustrated with disrespectful and stupid people though. Guess I'm still learning life lessons in class more than anything else right now. I have a couple classes that feel like a big joke. I feel like I'm going to get my degree and be thinking to myself, "have I even written a good paper yet?" Actually a couple weeks ago I wrote a poem. I think I should post it here. It goes along with my topic....the being stressed out thing. Its not even just the big things that stress me out, its the little ones too. I'm moving to the apartment next door for the summer. Man, we don't even get the Internet over there! Whatever will I do? (Probably write a good paper or something I suppose) I think I'm going to finish this post and then in a different one put my poem.

I love the children

This was at Jake and Staceys house the night I got back from Mexico. I was so super tired. I thought it would be fun to throw in a picture of the parents though. Never get many pictures of them these days. I thought I had a picture of me and my sis, but i guess that was on her camera. bummer.

I Got to stop by my moms in Ohio before I went to Mexico...here
are a few pics of the family ...

Me and Jesse playing with easter eggs. (Jesse is Joe & Wendys

This is really all the longer I got to see Jordan. Just enough to take this picture. Love you Jordan, but really, shave and cut your hair, its much cuter clean cut :) Love Jordan, He has been doing so much for show choir and theater productions this year in High school. Now to just work on that drivers license stuff.

Me and Kaylee coloring easter eggs. She was having lots of fun. Kaylee is Joe and Wendys too. She is growing up so fast! Its so weird to finally have a few neices now after so many nephews.
The girls dont really always get along, but we had fun playing with the barrell of monkeys. I hung them from the ceiling fan and that totally threw them both off! Ps, Jennifer doesnt really like to wear clothes. Thats slowly changing since they have moved to ohio from colorado though.


The day I was leaving for Mexico I went running some errands with Nikki jennifer and angela. This was on our lunch stop. Jennifers teeth are so stinkin cute!









Awww cute lil Ghetto fabulous baby with that hat and finger in her mouth.


Angela wanted in on the hat action too :) such a cute smile. what a good baby she is.

Justin is a nut....14 now...wowzers...my lil brother is getting so big....looking more and more like the football player he is.

Blessings...

Just took a trip with People Building People to Juarez Mexico. There were some of my friends from Dayton who are members of the L.D.S church a group from Grove City College and also a group of guys from Teen Challenge. This trip was such a great experience. I'm not sure that I really knew what I was getting myself into in the beginning but it turned out amazing! The biggest 18 blessings of the last week & 1/2 (not in any specific order) were...Anna, Ty, Jared, Nick, Holly, Kim, Robert, Clay, Adam, Gabrielle, Brynna, Mark, Leah, Brittany, Jenny, John, Scott, Dan. It was a great group of christian brothers and sisters. Its always nice to be able to serve with your brothers and sisters to accomplish something bigger and better than anything that could be done on your own. I love service projects! What a faith building experience. I was so thankful to be able to be part of a group that was so willing to share testimony of Christ through their actions. There were fun times, sun tans, scrapes and bruises, sickness, good food, good conversation, music, games, prayer, massage, memorable quotes and lots of driving. I just hope to be able to keep in contact with my new friends and see where life takes them.

***Pictures to come***

PUTT PUTT is now a Sunday activity....

I have to say this has been the most interesting sunday since I've been here at school. You will notice here that we are playing golf. "PUTT PUTT" , or if you wanna call it miniature golf thats fine too. But we get a knock on the door at about 9pm.It was Tanner and Aaron, two guys in my ward. I was like, um, HI guys. They just stood there and kinda giggled

....then they proceded to ask us (me and Harmony) if we wanted to play golf. So they came in and pulled out a case that had a putter that you had to put together by screwing the pieces all into one. It made me laugh so hard. They weren't kidding at all! The other kid pulls out a huge box of golf balls. We ended up making two courses. I think they were here for probably over an hour. This picture up top was the second hole. It was extremly difficult. Our floor isnt level at all. I have to post a couple other pictures. I'm sure the pictures dont do justice of how much fun we had, but nevertheless.....It was a really good night.oh...guess i only have two pics and some videos......sheesh.....

MEXICO

I just wanted to say how excited I am that I get to go to Mexico. I'm going to Juarez. I am going with a group called People Building People. We are going to be building houses. I believe I'm going to be working on kitchen stuff. It is going to be a week long trip. I'm so much looking forward to helping/serving by doing some heavy duty work :) I will have lots more to say about it when I get back. Hopefully I'll have pictures a few pictures to post too.

Wordless Wednesday