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14w 3d

I didn't feel like blogging on Wednesday of last week. Things worthy of noting as of today...

-I'm way more itchy than I wanna be. 

-morning sickness is real. 

-morning sickness is gagging about all things in my circumstance. And is never just during the morning. 

-I'm fighting a sinus infection. 

-I'm trying to go the essential oils route. 

-I still rely on Tylenol occasionally too. 

-tight clothes are the worst. 

- I've been given so many shirts and dresses for which I'm ver thankful. I just wish maternity pants were easier to find. I'll probably just end up looking frumpy in oversized clothing instead of wearing cute maternity things. 

-headaches have come and gone. 

-sleep doesn't happen for extended periods of time unless Tylenol pm is in my system. 

-I've only been using a sheet to cover up with. It still blows my mind how hot I can get. My average temperature these days is 99.5. It's no fun when I can just feel the burn behind my eyes. 

Ok so you'd think this is a log of all the awfulness I feel to remind myself never to do this again. But really it's ....well maybe more of a testament that I can do hard things. I'm still doing occasional massages. I still cook sometimes even though Brett helps when I'm not feeling up to it. I think my energy has come back a little bit. 

The real energy test will come when we leave for family vacation next week. How well will I hold up on a cross country road trip. TBD...

12w5d

This has been an especially rough week for me. I guess I'll work backwards from today. I have no idea how I've gone this far with tossing my cookies yet. But today I broke that streak. It's the worst. Last night wasn't the best night of sleep either. Yesterday was another really tired day where I could feel my body temperature rising because my eye balls were burning. The thermometer has never read higher than 99.5 though. Doctor said not to contact her or worry about it until it reached 100.4. The day's blur together but I'm pretty sure it was the day before that where I had a headache that wouldn't go away. Oh and my hip hurt and so I tried laying on my stomach to take pressure off of my hip which in turn caused my boobs to hurt. Then I was reminded while walking from one sleep spot to the next that something isn't right with my ankle. Side sleeping is still rough because it makes my arms fall asleep and my muscles tight and achy. 

Growing a human is a miracle. It's a miracle you can love someone that has taken almost complete control over any comfort I once had. My sleep will never be the same. But man oh man seeing that tiny body growing inside of me was the coolest thing. I get so emotional...back and forth. I feel a little crazy. I am trying to remember to be thankful for my body and the hidden wonder of this baby. That can be difficult at times but my patience is growing right along with this child inside of me. I just wish my energy was growing too. I felt all accomplished making bread last week and dinner yesterday. But I do pack Brett's lunches even if I can't always fix my own meals. I do try cleaning some every day. I am so hard on myself trying to think I can get it all done quickly. 

I'm a little nervous of the upcoming family reunion trip with Brett's family. We are heading to Alabama for about a week. I hope it all goes well and that my crabby crampy self gets some energy and that I don't make the group have to stop too often for potty breaks. 

My next appointment isn't until June 30th after the reunion trip. I look forward to those check in appointment times. 

11w5d

Brett's been dying for me to start writing about this pregnancy and my feelings. I thought since I slept most of the day away earlier that now would be an ok time to start writing. Plus I know it'll get harder to remember things the further along I get in this pregnancy. I already don't know the exact day we found out. 

I think that has become a blur because I wasn't sure I could believe it. The first test I took was real classy. I was being impatient and thought....hmm it's a few days early to check but let's give it a go because the last day of a honeymoon would be cool to find out you're pregnant. Well it was only a faint yes which in my mind meant don't get your hopes up. The funny thing about this whole pee in a cup pregnancy test stuff is that I used a Wall Drug cup that Brett had brought home for a souvenir. Needless to say we no longer have that cup. Anyway the next day I convinced Brett to get the Walmart brand test where you can test a few days early. It also gave us a faint yes. Again I didn't believe it because I was looking on the package and the percentage for its accuracy weren't that high so I looked up reviews online (something I would normally never do FYI) and this particular product had many complaints about false positives. Do you see why I still wasn't convinced I was having a baby. Oh btw the second test in the package I didn't believe either because it was an early morning test the next day and I hadn't used a cup and it was a mess. I just remember thinking well I didn't do that right. I'll have to get another test. So we ended up getting the name brand one on a Monday. I should've started that day so I figured between this two line action stick and a digital yes or no stick. We would for sure know soon. I had Brett there with me while I had the timer going. I don't think we even had to wait the full time before the two lines clearly and obviously appeared. I cried and we hugged. It wasn't until a couple days later that I decided we should take a picture with our positive test. I love that picture. 

It's been an interesting, rough, challenging couple of months. However this is one challenge I've been looking forward to for a long time. Being a newly wed newly pregnant woman is an emotional roller coaster ride. I can say I love being married but I'm not in love with being pregnant yet. There have been funny and rewarding moments but only after lots of headaches, cramps, soreness, and lots of lazy sleepy days. I'll never forget how cool it was to see our baby's heartbeat for the first time. But I feel bad for days like today where I was laying on the couch feeling yucky and tired watching Brett do his Insanity workout. I feel like my insides are doing all of what he was doing in the living room today. I am super lucky that although I have serious nausea problems I have not had to actually puke even once. I can feel fevers come and go. I can sleep more hours than seem humanly possible. But I have had some energetic days or moments. I'm not wanting to rush anything of this experience away but I really look forward to the second trimester where I hear it gets easier. 

I haven't gained any weight as of yet. Thankfully I had lost at least 15 right before I got married. All of my clothes still fit but I really hate wearing pants. Anything tight on my stomach is super uncomfortable. 

I usually am super hot too. I never imagined it being like this. I'm always the cold one. That still holds true for my feet and nose but I push Brett's heater of a body away too much. I want him to be close but I'm way picky and moody. He's been so good to fix me breakfast and fill up my water cup for me all the time. He even went out to Walmart without me tonight to pick up vitamins and Tylenol and ice cream. 

I haven't had too many cravings so far. The strangest thing is that buttered toast always sounds really good to me. I eat bagels with cream cheese way too much too. I've been trying to eat lots of fruit. Bananas and grapes mostly. But eating healthy is hard when I really have no energy to cook. I'm worried about getting gestational diabetes. I've got fairly high blood pressure but... Today I was shocked. At my doctors appointment they took it the first time and it was 141/85 or something. Then she came back and took it on my left arm 15 later it was 119/41. I think I just have a form of white coat syndrome or something. 

I've been to see a chiropractor twice already too because sleeping is rough. I favor sleeping on my right side which has hurt my arm and neck in the process. Hopefully I can get a good pillow or something figured out soon to help that issue. 

I guess this isn't a super touchy feely blog. I just wanted to document some of this process and remind myself how blessed I am even though it's hard.