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Went on a hike today in SC.

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FWD:

Love this tunnel in NC

Work Junk...

I have to pass this everyday going to work. I wish I wouldve gotten a better up close picture of this sign. Bridge will be out for     days. I guess its hard to say how long the bridge will be out. I think this sign would be applicable in our office. Your job will be here for      days.... The company I work for MAS (medical account services) was bought by AHS (advantedge health solutions) at the beginning of the year. They made it sound like we had nothing to worry about. Well last wednesday they finally sat down and had a meeting with us and told us as a group that the dayton office was closing and then told us we would each get our individual letters as to when our end dates were and what our severance pkgs were. Well I hate to say it but I wish my date was sooner than November. Tomorrow is a few girls last day.....suppoossssedly. This company is killing me. You can't give people an end date and then expect that you can call them after that and ask them what it was that they were doing for the company. And you can't let a huge portion of the office go and expect operations to run smoothly and deadlines to be met as normal. Well lets just say its been quite the hell hole of place to work lately. Sorry, there is no other way to talk about it. Its frustrating and yet I haven't figured out what else I'm going to do just yet. I've looked into 3 other things at this point....none of which have worked out. 2 of them having been massage jobs. Any ideas? hints? jobs? leads? I've thought about school? Not sure just yet whats going to be the best option.

How cute is he? got to go home today.

This was interesting. Saw the moon through the telescope. Thanks friend david 4 staying up late.

Elijah Chace Benson 7lbs.15ounces 20 inches

Jared and Nikki's littlest one was born today at 1:55. I still have yet to go meet him. I watched the kids a lil bit this evening while my dad went to go see him. Hopefully I can go see him tomorrow. I kind of really want to go with the girls. I was with them when they met Isaiah for the first time. I'd like to be there for this one too. I hope Jared has been getting pictures through email or phone or something. He is in Iraq...working for a year. Its sad he had to leave about a week before baby #4 was born. I wish I had a better picture than this. This is it for now.

Peace out

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Did i mention i like full moons?

Does a full moon affect anyone else like it does me.

Walmart

Walmart was quite the adventure with these two lil munchkins.

There is beauty all around...

Tadaaa!:-D
So what if my phone died when we got to ci ci's pizza tonight. The guy there let me plug it in for a bit so I could do a little bit of texting on my drive home.

This was a beautiful view for me to end my night on. Thanks kara for letting me use your phone to take this picture.

I wanted to do a wordless wednesday post, but then I realized most of my posts are wordless...or have been this last few months.

I should give update on my accident and status of car and junk in life. I feel a mess right now. Maybe thats why I enjoyed the temple and the sunset. Some things in life and all around me are so much in order. Hopefully I can add myself to that mix eventually. I have had a million and one little things go wrong and I know each one of them is something I can get through...but when they all come together at once I just tear up. The limits have been pushed and pushed with me here lately. I got this cheap car. Who cares if it was a bad choice or good choice...it was the decision made. Move forward....right? Ok, so I ask Jordan...who btw got fired....not about him, but it did add a little stress to my day to know his wasnt going too well either....i asked him to do a tune up on my car. We were going to switch cars so he could work on me. No big deal. Tune up ohhh and while you are at it...check the power steering fluid and something else. Just a few things. No big deal. right? wrong. Jordan owns a POJ too. So I got up late for church. I was just rushing to get to my meetings which just ended up being kind of scattered. I was just....having lots of conflicts....frustrated. I had lots sleep the night before and the night before. I just was making choices to stay up late...cause i do that...in fact i'm doing it right now. I stay up late and then think, beth, really....go to bed... But when I get it in my mind that i'm going to do something...like write a blog post, or spend some time finishing a good conversation. I just do it...and think about if it was good or bad later. I dont even really think if it was good or bad...just how is this going to make things for me tomorrow. Seeing how each event stacks on top of the next is interesting. Okay...so back to getting into jordans car to drive it home. it was after 9 and i tried to start it after getting dropped off.... my friend drove right off. I dont blame her, she had a long drive to get home. BUT then it wouldnt start. Battery was dead. UGH< really? sunday was just one thing after another. It wasnt a bad day it was just tough. I think I'm a strong person some days. Then I just sit and cry like a baby. You know when you think you have it hard and then things get even more interesting. yeahhhh I have been getting that. I have still been going to the chiropractor twice a week. Trying to get things with my back and my life all set in order. I keep getting off the car story. I get help in jumping the car, but not after some sparks and a broken shoe. wow. I don't know how to even complain about having a boring life. It doesnt happen. I'm not even telling personal stories. SOoooo car runs. I get home. Then it doesnt run in the morning. I'm an hour late to work....got a ride with a friend. Then....well. I get my car back and come to find out after a fill up and a few minutes sitting in the parking spot. I am losing lots of gas and fast....right under the car. Who knows where the rust spot , or hole or whatever it is ....is even at...but I have a gas leak, pretty major. I dont wanna own that car, and I dont think it will be any good to call the previous owner. So I probably wont even though my brother tells me I should. I got a ride to work today. Speaking of work. I got my letter saying my last day is november 15th....well thats if I want to be able to get unemployment benefits and a severence pkg. Eh. I have to say....i'll probably leave sooner. I should in fact be looking for work online right now, or sleeping...or working on a resume. But this week must be documented. Anyone have a job for me? In the mean time I have made new friends. The branch is good. Church is always good for me. I do love the things I learn in church and the experiences I have with good friends I get to associate with. Friends are hugely important to me. Somedays I just get so frustrated with things I think it would be better to not have such a big group that I'm constantly connected to. Hence the....oh yeah...i left facebook. Hope I havent offended anyone...eh...actually....its whatever. I think I tell less here than I did on facebook and its easier for me to just do my thing here and not worry about other people. I was doing wayyy too much of that. So I deleted all my friends. I'm working on being a better friend in person with people. Which can be hard when you feel like you are being pulled in a million directions. Ohhh the blessing and curse of it all... I want to be friends with as many people as I can...but it is hard to think about the coming and going of so many people. I get close with a few people fast....and I am afraid to lose those ones that are dear to me. Do friendships really ever end? I have had lots of friends come and go...some are harder to let go of. People come into our lives for a reason...or no? opinions? Thats one of those things that I wish I knew but I never will...okay, I cant say all of my thoughts here. I better get going.... I might post about the trip to palmyra later. this week has just been nuts. Todays time out to go to the temple was nice. Brought peace to my life :)

My new wheels

I got toni the other day. she was a pretty good deal but has a few issues. Plated and ready to drive as of today though..... I have mixed emotions abt giving up the yaris that ive had as the rental. Im kinda broker than broke now though since the insurance hasnt even given me a check yet 4 the gallant. Hence the reason im not wanting to give up the yaris yet. Oh well. Itll do.

Aw gube cut his hair AND did our dishes.

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Sunday. Fairborn. Fireworks.

Aww

Tuesday.

Today I had to return my moms car. I had been driving her car since last wednesday. Last wed evening a friend of mine brought me over to my parents house to pick up their car. They let me use it while they were up in marblehead. It was nice having something to drive even though I'm still not perfectly comfortable with driving just yet. Lets just say I still feel more confident with my own driving next to other peoples right now. I just dont like NOT being in control when I see brake lights. Oh well. I'm not having nightmares or anything so its okay. I went in to work today for about 5 hours. I also had an appointment with Dr Gordon and Gwen. I was scheduled to have the day off so I dont feel one bit bad about not working a full day. I guess there was enough work there to keep me busy alll week. I'm still not in the mood to bend over backwards for this company. I dont feel comfortable with them or my job right now. SO I had my appointment in the afternoon. Apparently I have ligament damage in my neck. They told me to not let anyone massage me and not to get in a hot tub and just to keep using ice. Dang I guess I shouldve done that this evening. I left work early so I could get over to the hertz in beavercreek and get my rental car and get some tents and chairs from my mom. I need to get things ready for the trip to Palmyra this weekend with the singles branch. I pulled up the the Hertz and I said....watch mom, i bet they are going to give me a yaris. sure enough. My fears became a reality. dang. I'm just not a fan of a car with no cruise control.  WHO DOES THAT? oh well. It was a lil bit of a pain to get this westfield company on the phone to figure out if they were going to be coving my insurance on the rental. That was a no brainer to me, but whatever...i'd rather be sure that they were instead of Hertz wanting to charge me 20 a day. So its a cute lil red yaris. I dont even know what year. I only care that its unlimited miles and gets good has mileage. I guess its mine for ten days. I think they will try to make me an offer before then. They said they would get an appraiser to look at my car. I have a feeling i'm only going to MAYBE get 1000. guess we will soon find out. I think the only car I've seen on craigslist that I may even want to consider is a ford van thats a 72 and is painted like the van on scooby doo. oh man, that'd be hilarious. I'm getting tired. Just needed to write about that stuff.

oh , couple other things...as side notes... I got a care package today :) I love mail. and.... I still cant believe jared is leaving for iraq in less than a week.

Tuesday lunch did make me smile

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I tried to work

I went in to work today for 2 hours. I started feeling sick. I couldn't take it. I thought I was going to get sick. My stomach felt horrible and i felt like i was getting a fever. I dont know if it was coming from the pain or what. I had taken anti-inflamatory meds, but I decided I needed to go home to take the vicodin and muscle relaxer. So...i stopped by the police station to get the accident report first. I finally was able to give my insurance the other girls information. They are going to contact her insurance and see where we get from there. I just hope that the hospital bills arent too much. My insurance covers the first 5000...anything past that the other insurance would have to fork out. I just spent a good long while passssed out on the couch. half alseep and half awake. Texting vanessa while she is away on vacation.