Thoughts too long for a fb status update

More and more my hormones remind me that I'm pregnant. I'm actually going to have a baby. Blows my mind. 

This morning Brett got home and had to hurry up and get a few hours of sleep. We had been making plans for months to be in a backup choir for the Nashville Tribute Band. Our call time was 3. Brett wanted to make sure to get in his plasma  donation too. So with only a few hours to sleep I put some lavender in the diffuser and then rubbed some on his feet. Then I went to go get some weekend laundry done. That's when I heard dripping from the closet where the hot water heater was. I'm not sure why I got so worked up. I was a little bit freaking out. I couldn't get ahold of the landlord or my brother and the in laws didn't know how to fix it. I called my dad and he helped. But not before I woke up Brett because I couldn't deal with it on my own without him knowing I was freaking out. Why in the world was I crying?! I've fixed bigger problems with less tears. Dang this baby. 

Thankfully Brett eventually slept and I got some laundry done and I got showered. Life was ok. The landlord finally text and said they're sending someone over on Monday. I guess I'll ask this plumber a few more questions about the apartment too. 

We made it to our call time. Things were not quite clear on instructions throughout the evening. I guess with big events you just expect that. Once we made it to Sandy Downs we had our sound check rehearsal. It was fun. I'll just jump ahead and say....little did we know that was the only time we would get to sing with them. I'll post a YouTube video on the events of the night. 

While we waited for our showtime I was texting my mom. She wants to see belly pictures. Well I'm not your normal sized or skinny sized pregnant girl. Anyone who knows me knows that. Everyone is different too. I get that. But I will say it's a little strange to be 23 weeks pregnant. (Pregnancy is 40 weeks long FYI) and I'm not showing any prominent abnormal belly bulge. I've always had a belly on me and this kid is growing underneath in a cozy casing of my uterus and adipose tissue. Hiding so far down that it won't show off very well any distinguishing sex organs. So when I seem emotional and tired and cranky... I more look fat and lazy not pregnant and emotional. It's probably  got an upside, like, no ones reaching to touch my pregnant belly yet but it's just weird that I'm over halfway through this and it's not visible. I usually like to stay in the shadows or be low key but I gotta stop reading pregnancy articles from my pregnancy app. They keep talking about normal pregnancy stuff and my situation isn't like others. It's dumb feeling like I can't relate to anyone else's experience. It's not fun but oh well. Everything isn't always roses and sunshine. Just feeling kind of down tonight and I still have no friends in town. So I might as well talk to the blog before I head to bed. 

Goodnight. I'm out.

BP

 

August 1st...

Brett thinks I should blog about my day when I have rough days. I guess its better than posting a long grumpy facebook post where I can't really explain in a few words what's really going on in my day. 

I woke up early to get ready for our choir practice that was in Idaho falls. I never do so well when I jump up and get ready fast. I knew that and I started to watch a video and decided I had an hour but that wasn't enough to shower and do everything. No big deal. I showered late in the day yesterday. I knew we were planning on getting in a pool today too soo no big deal. Well I watched a video for a half hour then sat down to eat some cereal and take my vitamins. I should've stuck with a good ol bagel and cream cheese. It hasn't done me wrong yet for a breakfast fix. Well then I got all dressed and was getting ready to leave. I hate to say this, but I don't wear a bra enough because its so restricting and makes me feel like I'm choking. Since I was going to be in public I thought I better suck it up and put one on. Sheesh. I don't know how people can over do it when they are pregnant?? My body revolts. I sat down on the couch and thought I'd be okay. Negative. I puked on the floor....ewww I hate feeling yucky. I got to the bathroom and disrobed and the feeling almost went away but not before gagging up the rest of my cereal. Yes this is probably a little too detailed, but why not. Then I tried to clean up my mess in the living room. Fail! Made me sick again. At least this time it was on the towel I brought out to clean up the mess. And so I gave up. I text Brett and said, sorry, it's not happening today. Then I went back to sleep. I had to pull it together before I had to go to work. I woke up again a few hours later and didn't eat before going to work. Probably wasn't my best massage I've ever given either :(  I need to maybe have a special next month to get some more business and get in some more activity. 

The good parts about the day were when I was trying to take it easy I actually felt the baby move so much. It was the most distinct feeling yet. I had questionable moments of feeling baby before but today was for sure. Then when Brett got home and woke me up he had his hand on my belly and felt the baby move too. I thought that was kind of cool that we felt the baby for sure on the same day. It was different times but still the same day. 

We spent some time the rest of the evening at his parents house. His brother bought and above ground 15 ft pool. I'm not even sure how long we were out playing in the pool but it was fun to get in the water for a change. 

Anyway, that's really all I care to write about for awhile.

19 wks

I went in to get my level 2 ultrasound on Friday. That put me right at 19 weeks according to the doctors first calculations.

Everything went well. And of course the main question everyone has is...so? Girl or Boy? 

I have to say that I gave this ultrasound gal a run for her money, or maybe it was my baby giving her a hard time. She found the heartbeat first and let us listen. Then she measured all the other vital parts. Belly. Brain. Head. Fluids. Placenta checked out ok too as far as I know. Everything was fine and dandy until we wanted to know specifics. This baby was...

Squirmy and legs crossed all the way up by the head. I wish I would've been further along so I could've felt the movement the same time as I was seeing it. So crazy. After some crazy maneuvers on my part she took some good pictures then told us some stats and sent us home with a cd of the still photos she took. I was super surprised that baby is measuring at over 20weeks. And... I can't believe the baby was .8 lbs. I've got an almost one pounder in there! 

The real bummer is that when I tried to pull up some pictures to post in this blog....the cd is empty :( 

And to be completely honest I never intended to come home and share the gender right away. We will see. It might come out before the birthday. If we decide to share I'll post it here eventually. I wanted to know and Brett wanted a secret so we compromised with keeping it to ourselves for a little while. So speculate all you want but I'll just say it's always a 50/50 guess :) Sorry if it makes some people mad, but you'll be okay. Just give it some time and you'll eventually know.

**************UPDATE*************

OF COURSE THEY SAVE THE PICTURES.... What was I so worried about ? :)

I'll share some

Glucose Tolerance Test (3 hour)

I went into to hospital lab this morning to do this 3 hour blood test. I won't give all the details, but I'll give a few of them. I only had to take this one because my sugar levels were too high during the 1 hr glucose test I took last week. I was borderline insulin resistant before getting pregnant so I was worried about it being a problem during pregnancy. I wanted to find out sooner than later if it was an issue.

Well anyway....I chose the fruit punch 100 gram sugar drink and then the blood draws began. One to start with and then one each hour for 3 hours.

At 6pm I got a call from my doctors office letting me know that the results were fine. I don't have gestational diabetes. I didn't bother asking if we will have to test again later. I hope this is for good. I guess I better start making healthier choices. I don't do horrible, but I know there is always room for improvement.

I also got a call saying our quad screen blood test came back negative as well. Good news on two tests today. Just thought I'd share.

And ps, Brett is back on 3rd shift. Not my favorite. I hope we can find him a permanent job before the baby comes with better hours and some perks or benefits. Good vibes, prayers and all that would be appreciated.

Thanks,
BP

17w 4d

I guess I haven't been so good about pregnancy updates. I should do better since it is out there for everyone to know now. We had been busy with family reunion stuff and then getting unpacked and getting things cleaned up after vacation seemed to take forever. 

Everyone was telling me I could look forward to second trimester because then I'd get my energy back. That seemed like a joke. Have I mentioned morning sickness only set in late in my first trimester and then continued for a couple more weeks. I also had gotten to the point where anything I was wearing that was remotely tight or close to my neck made me gag. I can't even wear my wedding ring without getting sick. Weird junk like that is what my life is all about right now. 

I will say I had some prayers answered that I could make it through a cross country road trip without too much incident. I never once got sick in the car. I don't think I blew up on anyone or cried in public at all. I even made it on a hike through mammoth cave in Kentucky. I got to visit friends in Nebraska and I also got to visit my family in ohio for a couple days too. All of that was on our way to Alabama. It was fun meeting Brett's extended family on his moms side. I really did have a good time. I just wish I wouldn't have been so tired so much. 

Last Friday I had a doctors appointment. I asked for a glucose screening a lil early. The doctor ok'd it. So after we asked all of our questions and booked our next appointment and I drank the tasty sugary orange drink we headed to the lab for a blood draw. I'm glad we asked for the tests. As it turns out I failed the glucose test. Which means I need further more in depth testing to see if I have gestational diabetes. They also mentioned that I'm anemic. I apparently switched to a prenatal vitamin that didn't include iron. Oops. Not a wise choice on my part. Oh well. After a few days on an additional iron supplement I'm feeling like this energy I've heard about is coming back. Yay! 

I'm not sure there's really much else to update about. My three hour glucose Tolerance test is tomorrow morning. 

I have normal aches and pains. My belly is always cold but everything else is always hot. Feverish feelings come and go. I am a lil stuffy and full of mucus.  My feet have only gotten swollen a couple times but the fat feet went away after keeping them up and a good nights rest. 

Well that's that. I guess maybe I'll update again once I know the other test results. Oh and honestly... I already had a belly before getting pregnant so I'm only slightly showing. Clothes would fit me I I felt like squeezing into them but I'd rather wear bigger things. Maternity clothes for plus size girls also don't exist! Sheesh. Oh well. I wear skirts and dresses as much as I can and some clothes I inherited from my late aunt Linda.