This one day back in november.... I had all these kids out at my brothers house. We had a fire. It was a fun night...for a minute. Haha

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Did i mention anything abt my new shoes yet? Probably not. I just had to inform the blogging world that i love my new vibram five finger shoes. The thing is....its snowing lots and i keep forgetting to just take them in to work and just wear them inside to get used to wearing them. Cold weather and the shoes are ok...but when it comes to the elements and the shoes....snow and rain... Im not a fan when its freezing. Im sure ill be wearing them when we pull the boat out but until then im just going to ease myself into the way they fit.

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I kind of love this house. I would never do it....but its fun to look at when i pass by

See...we were early. I was the 5th person checked in. Got to keep this...guess ill scrapbook it

December Thanks...

I had my birthday party on the first weekend in December. Yes its official, they day has come and gone. I'm 30!

Soooo just as a reminder to me. Thank you vanessa for the cute lil hat with a flower thing. Thanks Jeralyn for the picture frame. Thanks Jess for the gift card. Thanks Ashley for the board. Thank you Diana for the card and bringing Marcus who brought me the burrito....brave and awesome. LOVED IT :) Thank you Katie and Michael for the gift card and super awesome fun dinner with fun people. Love the music, food, and entertainment. Couldn't have asked for a better birthday evening. Thank you Ryan for coming along...and for the Salt and Lotion even though they came on different days, much much appreciated. Thanks Mike for the earrings. Wow. yeah Thanks :) Love them. Thanks Stacey for 30 of this and 30 of that and for reminding me time and again how I'm 30 :) Thanks Mom for dinner and your home. Thank you Thank you Thank you Arlene and Alejandra for the super duper awesome cake. Thank you Steve for suffering through a picture and coming to my party. I guess that same thanks goes to a few more people. Thanks Clarence for the stocking and the bracelet. Thanks nikki for the food you made. Thanks Justin for the entertainment you always so kindly provide anytime there is a crowd around. Thanks Marie for the Candle, I really love the way it smells. Thanks Sammie for the super cute cupcake candle. Who doesn't love the smell of chocolate, right? Thanks Rita and Pres for the calendar with your photography. I'll appreciate it all year long next year. Its quite possible I forgot something and/or someone.... I'll come back and edit when I realize it later. Oh Thanks holly and my aunts for sending birthday cards in the mail. It was a good week.

Saturday the 4th was my party, then on the 9th was my birthday, which was the day I gave a massage then got one of my own. Then the Madrigal dinner I went to that night was awesome. THEN on friday morning...I got up bright and early to go to Ryan's work christmas party with him. Oh Ryan and getting to everything early. I appreciate getting there early, don't get me wrong, but I think we got there unintentionally early. We brought a plate of cookies and then waited until I could check in. Apparently you aren't allowed to have your phone or a flash drive in that building. I was warned about the phone situation, but its a good thing I read the sign. I had to make a hike back to the truck to put my wallet away since I had a flash drive. You never know, I could've stolen some super secret confidential information. too bad I wouldn't know the first thing about being sneeky like that. Ryan showed me his desk, (felt like show and tell, it was cute) and then I met a couple coworkers. Then the first time slot was for games/movie. We watched the Disney version of The Christmas Carol. I must say it was major creepy. Good movie though. Then It was time to go get in line to get food. There were so many people there. Lines at like 7 -10 different stations. Oh yeah, before we went into the movie I ran into Bro. and Sis. Stankosky and Bro. & Sis Young and their son Jared. Sooo funny. I honestly didn't think I'd see anyone I knew. The line for food. yeahhh wayyyy long. But we just stood in line and chatted with some of Ryans work friends. Then up to his desk to eat. He had to do some work or something while we were there. Paperwork to catch up on or something. So I started to write a letter to kill some time. On a normal day I might have just text someone to kill time. Not happening that day. oh well. I survived, believe it or not. Then after that we were looking up funny things online. Don't know how much time we wasted in doing that. Then it was off to the talent show. Ryan wasn't a big fan of the church lady choir thing that was going on. Scroooooge i tell ya. oh well. He said I wasn't allowed to leave his sight, but I swear he had to pee wayy too many times that day/or maybe it was just filling up the water bottle. Thats about the only time I left his side. I think I was starting to feel like a leach. I made him go back to the talent show. It was interesting to say the least. What about a family christmas party on base screams BELLY DANCER...haha. probably my favorite act of the whole thing. While we were sitting there I also saw an old missionary that served in my ward 10 years ago. WOW, that was crazy. Found him and his wife on facebook already. Guess they are in the Dayton Stake and have been here a year already. I love it when I run into people I know. THEN...all the fun that we were going to have was about over. that talent show struggled a little bit. There was a sing along next, we got up and just went to his desk. Thats when I met another coworker. She was kind of funny. From Bulgaria, can't remember her name. We killed some more time then we had to help clean all the tables up. As we were walking another hallway I saw Bro. Weaver from the Xenia ward. haha, I had to kinda laugh and nudge Ryan every time I saw someone I knew. Then as we were breaking tables down Bishop Gullion from the Fairborn ward walked by. We chatted for a minute. He then told his daughter later in the day to ask me how I was doing....was I holding up with all of my cell phone withdraws haha oh BISHOP G...you know me all too well. I actually did pretty well up until I was trying to figure out what time it was and didn't have a phone or a watch. That made me super antsy. It wasn't the end of the world. I had a good time. Then clean up continued and I ran into another kid I met at a party at the Gullion home. Wow, i felt like I knew more people in that building at that point then Ryan did. Okay, that was a run down of my entire morning....the day only got strange after we got back to Ryans house. I actually ended up being late for work. oops. hate it when that happens. I should've made Ryan hurry up, but I didn't. Fail on my part. So I missed my first client at work. oops... Then the front desk gal was giving me crap about my schedule. Then the first lady was interesting, can't really give too many details on that. Then the next guy....um, even MORE interesting than the first....I've never been told to be done early for a massage and to just go take a break. I wasn't sure if he was being rude or what it was. It was just the wierdest experience I've ever had in giving a massage. UP UNTIL the next guy got a bloody nose on my table. idk....I had a good day the whole day, then it just went south. I don't know what it was about me that day. I went to get my print out and tips when it was time to leave and dont you know, my luck wasn't done being bad. The other Beth had taken one of my tips home. I was quite the grumpy pants when I got home. Sorry to my roommates for being a grouch.

Just thought I would share all that. I'm thankful that all my days aren't like work that evening. Sheesh....good thing its only gotten better from there.

I love my job. I love my friends. I love my family. Thank you all for being a part of my last 30 years.

FWD:

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November...

Wish I had some pictures to post....

Well, I don't remember specifically what I said in my last post, but lots has changed in the last month for me. I guess that's usual and expected for me...However...I'll update. I moved to columbus and then back. I got a job at the Massage Envy at The Greene. (in dayton). So I moved all my stuff back in to our condo. Thats a lie. ALL of my things aren't even back yet. Slowly but surely I'm getting them out of that basement in Columbus that I was living in. I was sick/had a cough for a good solid two weeks. I'm glad that that went away with my first day of work in Dayton. I have been working 6 hr shifts which kind of kicks my butt. I haven't done 5 massages in a day in 5 yrs. Lets be honest....did I ever do that many in my clinic internship? Maybe a couple times. 4 was what was required and thats usually what I did. My apartment living has been great. I love my roommates. I love all my friends here. (and all my friends everywhere) We are having a 4th roommate move in this weekend. She actually brought a few things over last night. My Sis in law was just trying to sit with me a few days and figure out which one my friends live with me. Its funny to think that as much as I've moved I am the one who has lived in this condo the longest of any of the girls that have been here.  Lets see....So I'm back in dayton, I like this massage envy too, but its more disorganized than I would like. They blame it on its newness....i blame it on poor quality of workers. I'm not in the mood for complaining about it just yet.

Thanksgiving went pretty well. Most of the family was at my moms house that day. Food was good, we got in naps and got to play some games together. AND best thing of all.... haha I haven't had leftover turkey yet. Maybe I'll do that today when I go to my moms.

The week before thanksgiving I spent 4 days with 2 of my nephews. My brother and his wife took a trip to cancun. Lets just say that I'm thankful I'm not a parent yet....and especially to two boys. There's something to say for raising a child from 0-? They maybe listen to you a little more. They were trying to get away with stuff with me the whole time. We did have some fun though. We went to a movie one night. I took them to wrestling practice another night. We had the cousins over another night for a sleepover. Its fun to spend time with them even if they are a lil roudy. They are growing up sooo fast.

I am actually planning on having my birthday party this weekend ....even though my bday isnt until the 9th.

I gave a talk in church yesterday....that was interesting....and short. I wish I would've been the one doing the musical number. I think music carries a better message than any talk I've ever put together. Well I better be off to go get some things done. Christmas has officially thrown up in our living room and I need to make some sense of it all.

Happy Day....

I have a new job. Tuesday is orientation. It all kind of happened pretty fast...I don't know how the details will work out but I'm sure they will. I'm feeling very good about everything. A little sad to leave dayton, but anxious to start my new job working as a massage therapist at Massage Envy in Columbus. My last day at work here in dayton will be wednesday.

Yesterday was my dad's birthday. I am going to go hang out with him tonight...watch a movie, eat some pizza. Then tomorrow after church I'm going to go watch my nephews while my brother takes his wife out for their anniversary. He can't even remember when they were married....haha. Should be fun......

Guess I need to just keep this short and sweet and get to packing and getting things done.
Just a short update since I'm super excited.

Peace Out!

Sunday Fun.

Last night my roommate Ashley needed to go to her moms house down south. I kinda wanted to tag along....so I asked if I could. We had a nice like drive to her moms then while we were down that way we stopped at my brothers house to say hi. They had just taken my sis-in-laws mom to the airport. She is from Texas...and as usual brought some kolaches :) and as usual that made me smile. I love those thing. No big deal. Bryce and Jake were talking to me and then I asked where Stacey was. She was down stairs doing laundry. That day Brandon and Bryce had just been playing football and soccer. Team was apparently the only thing on Bryce's mind. He went downstairs and told his mom that "Beth and her teammate are here". HAHA I love it. Kids are funny.

details of my day...

Today I just feel like talking about what I did. Because sometimes I feel like I've gotten to the end of the day and feel like I didnt do much. I think its only because I havent written it down. Maybe I should start with yesterday actually. The days kind of blended into each other. Yesterday was my cute peruvian roommates birthday. I was looking forward to it. We made her a fun lil poster board candy gram. :) I have had fun with a couple of those recently. Then after putting that on her bed and waiting for her to get it.... We got home from work and took off to Cains Chicken. Roommate Miranda is a super fan of Cains and Will had recently introduced me to it. Love those chicken fingers....apparently it started up at LSU (where miranda graduated). SOOO Wendy had never been. SO we took her to dinner there then headed back home.....where Elizabeth had been planning the surprise party for Wendy. Elizabeth and Ashley got home about the same time I think. They cleaned up the place and hid everyone in the kitchen. Miranda had picked up a cake and wendys fav (mint chocolate chip ice cream) and had EBeth bring it to our house. Well it was fun when we got home Wendy was super surprised I think. As it turns out she had never had a surprise like that before. yay for us. We did have to stall a lil bit. Which was fine because I drank soooo much at the chicken place that we had to stop on the way home. Which turned out to be really funny too because we stopped to use the bathroom at a wendys. There was this huge blow up Wendy outside and i made Wendy take her picture with it. Then one of the workers came out dressed as THE wendy too. So funny. We had cake and ice cream and talked with everyone for awhile. AND then we looked a few funny youtube videos...and met our new neighbor who stopped by. I guess he thought his apartment got broken into. EH, I think he just wanted to meet us and didn't have a really good excuse. Either way....i'm pretty sure his place is fine and we are glad we met him. Well sort of, not sure we really know his name yet. Plenty of time for that later I guess. So I guess i stayed up talking to Wendy a lil too long. I didn't get too much sleep. UGH...I need to set an alarm to go to bed...FOR THE LOVE. Then today I went to work...same ol same ol junk at work. The computer never goes fast enough to get any of my work done at work. People are always complaining about one thing or another. So I spent too much time trying to get things working. I applied for a job online at work while I was waiting for some pages to load. I pulled staples out of pages for a half hour. Thats always a blast. I need a different job. Its just...not the prime place to work. Well....Then it started to pour down massive rain....I realized my sun roof was open. Oops. so I skipped out. I had gotten in my time. Then I went home and watched yesterdays episode of Glee. I loved it. I'm kind of in love with Glee. I wish I wouldve gotten to watch it yesterday but its better late than never. Then I went out to Dayton to do some Visiting teaching. It was good. We had some good times talking and sharing stories with each other. I love those girls. and then....why do i rely on TOM TOM. I just have a better internal GPS at times. Then I went to the church....played the piano some. Did some stuff on the computer at church. Stayed for some of institute....Filled up my gas tank. Ate a strange dinner. Checked some email...blogged...and now I sit next to my broken clock. Thank good ness for a broken grandfather clock. I have yet to have a clock that I love. The first one in my possession clicked/ticked so loudly I couldnt sleep on my couch...if you know me at all you realize how sad that makes me. and this last one that is broken is quite the awesome clock, but kind of woke me up no matter where i was in the house. Both of my roommates are drugged up on Nyquil....half sick. I think I need to try to get better sleep tonight as to not catch whatever they are getting. Okay....well there is probably a few things to my day that I didnt put in here....but that will do for now. Maybe a year from now I will look back on today and wonder why I wrote so many details. Done sharing for tonight.
Peace.

I had to be out of my parking spot by 8. Oh rexburg. Guess its smoothie time

Love It

There is nothing that puts a smile on my face as easy as seeing an old friend...or two or three. Today was full of smiles for me. I love catching up with old friends and seeing where life has taken them and catching up and telling them about the crazy comings and goings I've been through. I might sound a lil crazy at times when I recount my last year so quickly, but I think it made for an entertaining evening. I never knew I could explain a years time in so short of a recap. friends, marriages, kids, experiences...lots to talk about. I am not sure if my friend reads this blog or not but she talked about meeting someone who was a visionary. I know it was a pretty cool experience for her to have. I think it is pretty cool when someone can look into your eyes and kinda see things about you. Window to your soul. Its crazy. I feel like there are people that have that ability that I know. They haven't said they are those visionary people, but they are influnced alot by emotions and feelings with no solid proof background. Sounds to me that they see things but dont really talk about it. ANYWAY...I like talking to these people. I don't think they are crazy, but when people have different talents it makes me feel like I'm not so strange afterall. And so I got a good conversation or two in today that left me with plenty of things about my own life to sort out. crossroads are a good place to be even if it feels like traffic is coming in both directions and I'm going to be hit by something big. Yeah maybe I could be more specific but....if I need to be later, maybe I'll talk about this more.

Things...

Some things
~I wanted to do something for my friend that graduated. oops. sorry.
~I wanted to go to the gym. where is that gym again?
~I thought I'd be done packing by now. Just vacationing, not moving, don't worry.
~I not only want, but need a new job. Hire me? I'm a good worker.
~I have this table that needs redone
~and a bench that needs painted.
~Did I mention I want a perm?
~I never did get that frame for my certificate.
~OR what about organizing all those papers. Halfway organized doesn't say much does it?
~I wanted to get a season pass to La Comedia. I love dinner theater shows.
~I want and still need tires and a new clutch. You think I'll end up getting to help put those in? eh, maybe.
~Ever hit your alarm 3 times instead of getting up? I wanted to walk this morning and...well maybe the last 2 months of mornings.
~I thought I'd work longer hours this week to make up for being gone next. Haven't been able to convince myself that I should put forth any extra effort for this company that's letting me go...not to mention is not a happy place to be.
~I have zucchini in my fridge all shredded up and ready to make bread. Guess now that requires a trip to the store to get more sugar. I wanted to finish it up. Maybe next time?
~I wanted to get a scrap booking project done that's been sitting around for a year....already paid for mind you. yeahhh still not done :(
~I wanted to act like I cared. I didn't.
~I cared....and didn't want to.
~I wanted to take piano lessons. and voice. Maybe took one of each. I'll survive without.
~I would really like to, and hope at some point in my life I will get to meet a few people I have come to admire.
~I wanted to get more sleep.
~I wanted to help.
~I think it would be pretty cool to get professional photos taken, just of me. just because.
~I haven't really ever been much of a person that dreams big dreams and shares them. I wish I could.
~I wished I talked less when it was unnecessary and more when important things needed to be said.
~I wanted to blog. I finally did.

Remember when...

There are only a few who read this who might remember...but still...

Remember when we were at BYU idaho and we asked two boys to this dance. They kind of ignored our asking. Dang that sucked. Oh well. Its okay....I wanted to go. I asked someone else instead. He came along.

Yes Cat. I think thats gotta be him. Your friend knows Joe? Remember when randi had like a week of competing with him and they played tennis and other things. I dont even remember who won but thats okay.

Honestly The only couple memories I have of Joe at this point are the....going to the dance with me and taking some pretty hilarious pictures...and walking out on the balcony of the MC during the dance and throwing snow balls at people who were walking in to the dance. Oops maybe that wasnt very nice of me. Oh and the other memory was us in the computer lab at the Ghetto village and he wanted us to help set him up an email or something... or maybe just check it for him. He told us his password and I didnt think that was very wise, but he didnt seem to care. Confession=maybe a year or so ago I tried to see if that email and password still worked. It didnt :) I kind of wondered where that kid went to.

Let me know if you know.

One more remember when... this one is for you jade or sarah or cassie if you even read this.... my very first semester at Rick's. I went to a field dance. I was getting my picture taken with a friend and some other boy jumped in the picture. You ever had a stranger in your picture closer to you than the actual friend in the picture? I have. I still wonder who he is and thought maybe someone might see him in my pic someday on facebook and know him.

Thats all

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Temple night

Straight from Iraq

Just got a phone call from Jared. He was almost ready to get on a bus to head to the chow hall to go get some dinner. He wanted to see if I had gotten the video he sent me of his room today. Oh my oh my...thats my brother. Thought I would post here for everyone to see. haha enjoy...

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Went on a hike today in SC.

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Love this tunnel in NC

Work Junk...

I have to pass this everyday going to work. I wish I wouldve gotten a better up close picture of this sign. Bridge will be out for     days. I guess its hard to say how long the bridge will be out. I think this sign would be applicable in our office. Your job will be here for      days.... The company I work for MAS (medical account services) was bought by AHS (advantedge health solutions) at the beginning of the year. They made it sound like we had nothing to worry about. Well last wednesday they finally sat down and had a meeting with us and told us as a group that the dayton office was closing and then told us we would each get our individual letters as to when our end dates were and what our severance pkgs were. Well I hate to say it but I wish my date was sooner than November. Tomorrow is a few girls last day.....suppoossssedly. This company is killing me. You can't give people an end date and then expect that you can call them after that and ask them what it was that they were doing for the company. And you can't let a huge portion of the office go and expect operations to run smoothly and deadlines to be met as normal. Well lets just say its been quite the hell hole of place to work lately. Sorry, there is no other way to talk about it. Its frustrating and yet I haven't figured out what else I'm going to do just yet. I've looked into 3 other things at this point....none of which have worked out. 2 of them having been massage jobs. Any ideas? hints? jobs? leads? I've thought about school? Not sure just yet whats going to be the best option.

How cute is he? got to go home today.

This was interesting. Saw the moon through the telescope. Thanks friend david 4 staying up late.

Elijah Chace Benson 7lbs.15ounces 20 inches

Jared and Nikki's littlest one was born today at 1:55. I still have yet to go meet him. I watched the kids a lil bit this evening while my dad went to go see him. Hopefully I can go see him tomorrow. I kind of really want to go with the girls. I was with them when they met Isaiah for the first time. I'd like to be there for this one too. I hope Jared has been getting pictures through email or phone or something. He is in Iraq...working for a year. Its sad he had to leave about a week before baby #4 was born. I wish I had a better picture than this. This is it for now.

Peace out

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Did i mention i like full moons?

Does a full moon affect anyone else like it does me.

Walmart

Walmart was quite the adventure with these two lil munchkins.

There is beauty all around...

Tadaaa!:-D
So what if my phone died when we got to ci ci's pizza tonight. The guy there let me plug it in for a bit so I could do a little bit of texting on my drive home.

This was a beautiful view for me to end my night on. Thanks kara for letting me use your phone to take this picture.

I wanted to do a wordless wednesday post, but then I realized most of my posts are wordless...or have been this last few months.

I should give update on my accident and status of car and junk in life. I feel a mess right now. Maybe thats why I enjoyed the temple and the sunset. Some things in life and all around me are so much in order. Hopefully I can add myself to that mix eventually. I have had a million and one little things go wrong and I know each one of them is something I can get through...but when they all come together at once I just tear up. The limits have been pushed and pushed with me here lately. I got this cheap car. Who cares if it was a bad choice or good choice...it was the decision made. Move forward....right? Ok, so I ask Jordan...who btw got fired....not about him, but it did add a little stress to my day to know his wasnt going too well either....i asked him to do a tune up on my car. We were going to switch cars so he could work on me. No big deal. Tune up ohhh and while you are at it...check the power steering fluid and something else. Just a few things. No big deal. right? wrong. Jordan owns a POJ too. So I got up late for church. I was just rushing to get to my meetings which just ended up being kind of scattered. I was just....having lots of conflicts....frustrated. I had lots sleep the night before and the night before. I just was making choices to stay up late...cause i do that...in fact i'm doing it right now. I stay up late and then think, beth, really....go to bed... But when I get it in my mind that i'm going to do something...like write a blog post, or spend some time finishing a good conversation. I just do it...and think about if it was good or bad later. I dont even really think if it was good or bad...just how is this going to make things for me tomorrow. Seeing how each event stacks on top of the next is interesting. Okay...so back to getting into jordans car to drive it home. it was after 9 and i tried to start it after getting dropped off.... my friend drove right off. I dont blame her, she had a long drive to get home. BUT then it wouldnt start. Battery was dead. UGH< really? sunday was just one thing after another. It wasnt a bad day it was just tough. I think I'm a strong person some days. Then I just sit and cry like a baby. You know when you think you have it hard and then things get even more interesting. yeahhhh I have been getting that. I have still been going to the chiropractor twice a week. Trying to get things with my back and my life all set in order. I keep getting off the car story. I get help in jumping the car, but not after some sparks and a broken shoe. wow. I don't know how to even complain about having a boring life. It doesnt happen. I'm not even telling personal stories. SOoooo car runs. I get home. Then it doesnt run in the morning. I'm an hour late to work....got a ride with a friend. Then....well. I get my car back and come to find out after a fill up and a few minutes sitting in the parking spot. I am losing lots of gas and fast....right under the car. Who knows where the rust spot , or hole or whatever it is ....is even at...but I have a gas leak, pretty major. I dont wanna own that car, and I dont think it will be any good to call the previous owner. So I probably wont even though my brother tells me I should. I got a ride to work today. Speaking of work. I got my letter saying my last day is november 15th....well thats if I want to be able to get unemployment benefits and a severence pkg. Eh. I have to say....i'll probably leave sooner. I should in fact be looking for work online right now, or sleeping...or working on a resume. But this week must be documented. Anyone have a job for me? In the mean time I have made new friends. The branch is good. Church is always good for me. I do love the things I learn in church and the experiences I have with good friends I get to associate with. Friends are hugely important to me. Somedays I just get so frustrated with things I think it would be better to not have such a big group that I'm constantly connected to. Hence the....oh yeah...i left facebook. Hope I havent offended anyone...eh...actually....its whatever. I think I tell less here than I did on facebook and its easier for me to just do my thing here and not worry about other people. I was doing wayyy too much of that. So I deleted all my friends. I'm working on being a better friend in person with people. Which can be hard when you feel like you are being pulled in a million directions. Ohhh the blessing and curse of it all... I want to be friends with as many people as I can...but it is hard to think about the coming and going of so many people. I get close with a few people fast....and I am afraid to lose those ones that are dear to me. Do friendships really ever end? I have had lots of friends come and go...some are harder to let go of. People come into our lives for a reason...or no? opinions? Thats one of those things that I wish I knew but I never will...okay, I cant say all of my thoughts here. I better get going.... I might post about the trip to palmyra later. this week has just been nuts. Todays time out to go to the temple was nice. Brought peace to my life :)

My new wheels

I got toni the other day. she was a pretty good deal but has a few issues. Plated and ready to drive as of today though..... I have mixed emotions abt giving up the yaris that ive had as the rental. Im kinda broker than broke now though since the insurance hasnt even given me a check yet 4 the gallant. Hence the reason im not wanting to give up the yaris yet. Oh well. Itll do.

Aw gube cut his hair AND did our dishes.

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Sunday. Fairborn. Fireworks.

Aww

Tuesday.

Today I had to return my moms car. I had been driving her car since last wednesday. Last wed evening a friend of mine brought me over to my parents house to pick up their car. They let me use it while they were up in marblehead. It was nice having something to drive even though I'm still not perfectly comfortable with driving just yet. Lets just say I still feel more confident with my own driving next to other peoples right now. I just dont like NOT being in control when I see brake lights. Oh well. I'm not having nightmares or anything so its okay. I went in to work today for about 5 hours. I also had an appointment with Dr Gordon and Gwen. I was scheduled to have the day off so I dont feel one bit bad about not working a full day. I guess there was enough work there to keep me busy alll week. I'm still not in the mood to bend over backwards for this company. I dont feel comfortable with them or my job right now. SO I had my appointment in the afternoon. Apparently I have ligament damage in my neck. They told me to not let anyone massage me and not to get in a hot tub and just to keep using ice. Dang I guess I shouldve done that this evening. I left work early so I could get over to the hertz in beavercreek and get my rental car and get some tents and chairs from my mom. I need to get things ready for the trip to Palmyra this weekend with the singles branch. I pulled up the the Hertz and I said....watch mom, i bet they are going to give me a yaris. sure enough. My fears became a reality. dang. I'm just not a fan of a car with no cruise control.  WHO DOES THAT? oh well. It was a lil bit of a pain to get this westfield company on the phone to figure out if they were going to be coving my insurance on the rental. That was a no brainer to me, but whatever...i'd rather be sure that they were instead of Hertz wanting to charge me 20 a day. So its a cute lil red yaris. I dont even know what year. I only care that its unlimited miles and gets good has mileage. I guess its mine for ten days. I think they will try to make me an offer before then. They said they would get an appraiser to look at my car. I have a feeling i'm only going to MAYBE get 1000. guess we will soon find out. I think the only car I've seen on craigslist that I may even want to consider is a ford van thats a 72 and is painted like the van on scooby doo. oh man, that'd be hilarious. I'm getting tired. Just needed to write about that stuff.

oh , couple other things...as side notes... I got a care package today :) I love mail. and.... I still cant believe jared is leaving for iraq in less than a week.

Tuesday lunch did make me smile

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I tried to work

I went in to work today for 2 hours. I started feeling sick. I couldn't take it. I thought I was going to get sick. My stomach felt horrible and i felt like i was getting a fever. I dont know if it was coming from the pain or what. I had taken anti-inflamatory meds, but I decided I needed to go home to take the vicodin and muscle relaxer. So...i stopped by the police station to get the accident report first. I finally was able to give my insurance the other girls information. They are going to contact her insurance and see where we get from there. I just hope that the hospital bills arent too much. My insurance covers the first 5000...anything past that the other insurance would have to fork out. I just spent a good long while passssed out on the couch. half alseep and half awake. Texting vanessa while she is away on vacation.

Wreck stuff....

I'm holding off on my drugs for a minute. I can't even think straight when i'm on them, so i decided I should write about how my day went yesterday before i take more drugs. My mom took me at abou t830 or 845 to sids towing to get my stuff out of my car. I took my pain meds, vicadin, flexoral and motrin before leaving. We got to my car, i signed a paper at the tow place that the man said would be a release to have the ins tow the car to a body shop to get an estimate. I'm sure its past repair though. I opened the trunk and it wont shut now. I got my keys and other things out of it. Well i left the key in the ignition like he asked me to though. I was more in need of the church and house keys that were on my key chain though. THe front is all crunched up and so is the back. I didnt even try to open the hood, I did take a couple more pictures of it while i was there. I turned the ac off and turned the key to see how many miles i had actually driven it. So i got a picture of the mileage on the odometer and I am so mad. I just filled up my gas tank right before getting hit. I was 11.2 miles from the gas station. sigh. so it seemed like it took forever to get my things. I was kind of mad that I even had to be there. They wouldnt let jessica and kyle get my stuff the night of the accident. I only got a few things out , my mom got the rest. I was getting tired. the drugs were starting ot kick in. I was kind of feeling like i needed to take out the stereo. we started to get it, but then the guy said its probably better if you leave it unles you have the factory one to put back in. i dont. so we left it. Then I asked sids towing where the riverside police dpt was. We headed over there. I got a card with the record ladys info. They didnt have the report yet. I just wonder how long it takes for someone's insurance to call me. I have no idea who else was really involved in the wreck. I hate that I dont have a car. I tried to call my insurance yesterday to file a claim. I gave the guy some info and he said he would have someone call me. BUT they never did, so this morning i called back and i got a claim number but i just dont know who i'm waiting on or what. I just mostly hate that i'm not in my right frame of mind and i have so many phone calls to make. I hate that i had to miss work yesterday. and today for that matter. It sucks cause Vonnie had asked me to work full time / over time hours this week since denise was out of town. she doesnt come back for awhile...i think she gets back the 6th. our work is probably overloaded big time. Well. then my mom was taking me home and scraped the side of some guys car. I was practically asleep in the car. I couldnt handle having to sit around and wait for cops. I called wendy to come get me. I maybe cry alot, but i hate crying right now cause I cant say what its for. Its just overwhelming. I cant afford to take time off work. I cant afford to just call up a rental company to get a car. I can't really sit too long at a computer screen either. after i'm done writing this i am going to go lay down, oh yeah and i need to shower because andrea is coming to get me and take me to see doctor Gordon. Thats the crazy thing. I can't afford to pay him again either. I had just left his office right before the accident the other day. Now Im going back. He is who i want to get treated by. my twitching that he has worked to help me get rid of is back in full force. Its all too complicated. And I gotta get andrea to try and take me to the bank after seeing Gordon. Pres connell told me I could use his hot tub, but when i'm on vicadin thats bad. SOOO... that might have to wait. Heat on an acute injury i never thought was good. soo i'm trying to wait a couple days. my neck is killing me. I hope I have written down most of my day and how it went. I guess i wrote about everything except the texts and phone calls i've gotten in between napping. I dont know who i've said what to anymore. I'm sure i've talked to more people than i remember. Sorry if i have said i'll do somethin that i haven't yet. I had a friend bring me lunch and then anothe rfriend come andcook me dinner. ok really thats all for now. shower time.

These guys were with me...and nurse wendy=my roomate came to see me b4 her shift started.

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Its ok. See....i wore cute socks. Thats all that matters. Ha.

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I was still sick of waiting and still really had to pee! Argh. Jess and pres had to hear me getting cranky and fidgity.

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Hahaha i look horrible. Can u see why i wantd out?! They had me go get scanned next. Jess and pres connell came to wait with me.

They left me in the room alone with my call button... So i snappd more pics....

When i finally got to MVH . this was again a lovely view. bleh. i just wantd up and off the stretcher. bp. was 150/90. i sat here really needing to pee FOREVER. BUT no way was i using a bed pan!

This guy was asking me questions. No im not allergic to anything...no im not pregnant. Yadda yadda yadda. Where are u hurt he askd me. All i could think to say was....can i touch u? So thats how i showed him where i hurt. The ER doc wasnt so nice

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Got in the ambulence and this was my view

This car hit me

Got into a fender bender yesterday.

Relationships.

Relationships are about as easy as this here equation. Just ask Mark. I wanted a topic to blog on and he gave me this idea. I think we talked awhile about it. It kind of all went in one ear and out the other. Maybe Katie will be able to expound upon this for me. Its sounds real nice and good to hear what he had to say about relationships....but I obviously haven't figured this one out. I never was good at math. But Mark here sure does have a nice smile. haha

Not sure even really how much of my family reads my blog.... This is my grandmas house. Let me point out what makes me giggle abt this picture. It displays things abt my grandma....like the fact that shes a pack rat. How many clocks does one woman need? Especially ones all located in the same spot....while displaying different times. That makes me giggle. I even removed one from the picture.

Luv it

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Happy Fathers Day....

Just wanted to take a minute to say Happy Fathers Day to my dad. I guess this is a lame way to say happy fathers day, but I'd rather write a blog then send a late card.

Thanks dad for all you do. I appreciate your chill attitude. I appreciate the love of adventure that you've given me. Where else would I have gotten it in my mind to move so much if it wasn't for you and our relocating every couple years. Thanks for being you. I love you.

and happy fathers day to my uncle (also pictured... thanks for being there for me while i lived out west when i was far away from my dad)

Temple trip

ahhh man I thought I had a full group shot. BUT NO. we went on another temple trip with a great turn out and i made everyone gather for a picture. I thought i got one before i went to stand in the group. I guess I only got this one of the photographer. It was starting to rain. Either way it was a great day. I'm glad I did end up going even though it was packed. I had a great drive to and from the temple with two good friends and one new friend.

The Secret Powers of Time - BestofYouTube.com

The Secret Powers of Time - BestofYouTube.com


I was just looking at a few videos tonight on best of youtube kind of interesting that I'm sitting here tonight trying to figure out what better to do with my time...yet somehow wasting it on youtube and then listening to a guy talk about how people ues their time and ..just watch it. its interesting

FWD: Giant Jesus in Middletown got struck by lightening and burned down last nig

Giant Jesus in Middletown got struck by lightening and burned down last night!

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American Family

This was Memorial Day weekend. Spent the afternoon with my family. Well, all but Justin. He had planned a camping trip with friends. Hope he had fun. He is finally out of school for the summer. Got back from the New York City Ensemble show choir trip and is looking for a summer job. I think he plans to work at the corn maze or maybe clean some horse stalls or something. Jordan is still working at Taco Bell in Xenia and has recently acquired a couple tattoos. a quote on his forearm that is so long i cant remember what it says and a lion on his upper arm/ shoulder. Not a fan of tattoos really, but i'm sure some people really like the artwork. Mom basically said,...you wasted 50 bucks on that?! He still lives at home and I'm not sure how college has been working out for him and what his future plans are. I do know he is always looking for a better car. He drives the boat of a vehicle he bought from jared and it gets horrible gas mileage. So hopefully soon enough he can get his crap together :) Then next up the line of siblings is Jared and his Fam. Nikki and the girls will have an interesting next year. The girl will continue to outnumber boys in that household. Nikki is expecting their 4th child on july 30th. I think they plan to name him Elijah Chase, the number of boys vs. girls would be even now, but jared will be going away for a year. I think KBR is the name of the company he applied to about 2 yrs ago when he got out of the army. They finally called him back and offered him a job. Last I heard he goes to Texas july 12th to do some final testing before the ship him to Iraq for a year. Its a foreman position. I don't know all the details but i'm sure jared is pretty excited to get a great paying job that is a contract for a year.He hopes to stay with the company after the year and try to work from one of their locations in ohio after the year is up. Nikki, Jennifer, Angela and Isaiah are all doing well. Isaiah got his first haircut recently. I'm suprised one of the girls didnt give it to him with as many times as they have ended up cutting each others hair. OH KIDS... I see them lots. It feels like they are over at my moms every time I go there. Nikki and Jared both aren't working right now so thye spend a lot of time garage sale-ing with my mom. I don't think there is anything that my mom loves more. I mean if poor people paid others to shop for them. My mom would be able to have the perfect job! Her eyes always light up when she gets to share in the glory of retelling of a get deal! haha I benefited recently when she purchased a Magic Bullet smoothie making machine for me. I LOVE IT> only 10 bucks. My favorite story ever though is the most recent of her buying a pair of jeans at a sale for $1. Jordan didnt like them...so since the tags were still on..she took them back to JCPennys. Haha $32 store credit. So of course my mom goes to the clearance rack and buys that much and more worth of things because she had a spend 25 and get 10 off coupon. She is a funny lady. She always has a list on her mind of things people need. And she usually just buys things and then figures out who to get them to later. Oh yeah....i could write a whole blog of my moms garage sale finds haha. She told herself she was going to go to walmart and nowhere else the other day. No, thats right folks, she came home with a new hide a bed chair for the living room to stick next to the fake fireplace they just got from a garage sale too. OHHH and tomorrow they will be picking up a new furnace for tinas house. OK...backto the update. Me. i'm next. I work part time now at my date entry job. I wanted to be able to make more time for Massaging. Its been good so far. Oh and I kind of needed more time in my schedule for doing Relief Society things. I think it was early Feb. when I got called to be the singles branch RS President. Still learning new things every week in meetings and councils. Its interesting to see the organization and order of the church from a leaders viewpoint. I struggle with feeling like I'm doing good at it or making any difference....but I know I just need to try harder and keep my head up. Some days are better than others. Just gotta learn from my mistakes and make changes. Other things in my summer= I got a cedar fair platinum pass... basically i can go to kings island or cedar point any time i want to this summer. I feel like i've almost already paid for it. I went with my nephews one night already and friends another day. I plan on going to cedar point soon here. I still love living with my roommates Wendy and Miranda. I love my home. My best friend and old roommate Holly is going to be leaving for school in a couple weeks. So now we are watching her piano at our house. I love that. Its nice to play every now and then. We also threw a super fun lil shin dig for her last night at our house. I'd say we had about 35 people show up. It was pretty awesome. I hope my neighbors were ok with the fact that we had people pouring out our front and back doors and they all didnt leave until probably around midnight. Thats all on me for now. My sister and her family are doing alright. Anthony is still looking for work. He recently got baptized. He is speaking in church next week. Wish I could be there. I think the members should be able to help him get up and moving again and find a job. I guess tina said its been nice to have him at home with his daughter Jaylyn from time to time....but I still think they are both wishing one of them had better employment. Anthonys oldest daughter Faith is expecting a lil baby as well. Sophia will be her name. Not sure when she is due, but the thought of my sister being a 31 year old grandma kind of makes me laugh. and i'm not sure what AJ is doing for the summer...probably the same thing any teenage boy would be doing... hangin with friend and playing video games and half looking for a job so he can have gas money to drive around when he wants to while waiting for football to start up again. Jake and Stacey are still doing really well. Stacey is about to get her masters in November....cant wait to party it up/celebrate with her for that. Jake is forever getting new toys. They must have like 3 or 4 four wheelers now. I think i'm going over wed night to play on them. They have also slowing been changing and fixing things up at their house. Making things brighter and better. I love the new colors and the ikea furniture in the boys rooms. Brandon is getting so big...blows my mind. He was way excited when he got to ride the Diamondback at Kings Island with Jake. As for Bryce he just recently graduated from preschool. I missed it but i heard that He said he wants to be a doctor when he grows up. Joe and Wendy are also doing pretty well. Joe has been going to school to become a medical assistant and Wendy got her associates degree recently. She is still looking for and interview for jobs in hopes that joe can quit working at mcdonalds while he is in school. Wendy is also babysitting for a few families to make some money as well. Jesse just turned 8 today actually. We went to his bday party on saturday. He had a wrestling themed party. I love that they had a ton of people over for his party. Wendy throws a good party. It was just a sticky hot humid day. Kaylee had been taking dance classes for awhile and we went last sunday to go see her recital. Me and Joe have decided she needs a new dance school. I dont think wendy feels the same way. I think i'd have to say that Justin should just give her lessons. hahaha his choreography for show choir stuff was more put together than half of these girls routines. I'm just not a fan of dance studio dance classes. They baby the girls too much. i know they are only 3 but even the older girls who have been dancing for 10 years kinda...well weren't the least bit impressive. Okay that may be rude, sorry. KK was super adorable on stage though. She did a great job. That pretty much covers everyone. Oh except my parents... I think my dad is forever trying to find a new / better job or position with social security. It just hasnt come up. He is always looking for a new car and a new job. Whatever makes you happy. Maybe He will find me a decent new car. I'm ok with him always looking. I am sure mine is going to crap out real soon. I have a super long list of things that are just not right. I cant wait for the 4th of July weekend. We are going up to Marblehead for a wknd with extended family and my grammys bday party. 85. wow. Should be a good time. oh and other trips i have planned are to lake cumberland KY and to palmyra NY and possibly Ontario in august. Not sure where to go for my 30th, but Hawaii would be nice.

My bro in law and neice got baptized today. It went really well and half the ward attended! It was awesome

Went to kings island for a couple of hours tonight. Lots of fun

New place settings

This pic made it to fb but not my blog until now... james and his super sweet ride